I don’t know about you, but I don’t enjoy being a mom every day of every month of every year. In fact, I used to feel a little trapped at the thought that even when my kids are older, I will still be a mom. It used to overwhelm me that I will still be responsible for praying for them, loving them and listening to them. It will never, ever, ever end until the day I die.
I know that sounds a bit dramatic, but maybe you can relate… even just a little bit?
Maybe you are waking up this morning to a feeling of, “Here we go… again.” Maybe you are a new mom, tired and wondering how you are going to do this another week. Maybe you are going to have your second baby and you don’t quite know how you are going to love both of them equally everyday. Or maybe, like me, 10 years has gone by and little ones are still frolicking about. Whatever season you are in as a mother- life is no longer yours, and will never be again.
I used to feel trapped. I used to feel overwhelmed, and I used to drag my feet at the thought of forever.
And one day God asked me, “What do you see when you look at your children?” I see the loves of my life. I see mess-makers, I see tantrum throwers, I see the sweetest, yet most disrespectful people who I could ever love. I see the future. “The future of what?” I see the future of a nation and the future of the Kingdom.
In that moment what I saw was freedom.
Freedom from feeling trapped by forever. Freedom from carrying a burden of selfishness and fleshly desires. I felt freedom in knowing that what I see physically is not what God sees. He sees the future of His kingdom. He sees what is unseen. When all I can see is the mess, when all I can feel is the tiredness, and when all I can hear is the loudness, He only sees what is to come. He sees my victory and then beyond.
Freedom is found in seeing past the moment. There is great peace in knowing that I don’t have to enjoy every moment of being a mom. It doesn’t mean I am not a good Christian or a God fearing woman. It means I am human. I need Him. I need His strength daily to get me past the moments I don’t enjoy. And that is where my victory lies.
Only in Him. Only with Him. And only for Him.
Today, I will choose to thank Him in the moments of joy and laughter with my children, but today I will also choose to thank Him in the unenjoyable. Today, I will look past the moment and see the unseen. The physical hardships of raising our children are temporary, but the love and training we pour into them is eternal. Today, I will live with an eternal mindset.
“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18)