There are days when I wake up and I just don’t feel like doing my duties as a wife and mother. Days that are just off for no particular reason. I find myself looking at another full sink and another pile of clothes to fold. I find myself thinking, “If I just don’t do this today, will it make a difference to anyone?”
Then the day begins and school starts with my kids. I see them make the same face that I made looking at the dishes. “Again?” they say. “Why do we have to do this everyday?”
And I am caught red handed.
I realize that this is not just a feeling of not wanting to do what I should. This is a battle between me and the enemy. Between my children and the enemy. Not wanting to do the day to day things of life are an ongoing battle from the youngest of age. Yes, we all need rest and a break at times… but most of the time that’s not the issue. The issue is that I am an adult and can rationalize my tiredness or wanting to lounge around. I can choose to let my excuses run my day.
But just because I can, doesn’t mean I should.
I don’t allow my children to get away with their feelings stopping them from doing what they should. I expect them to endure and gain character. My Father expects the same for me. He has designed me to need His strength everyday, and when the everyday is in my home- dishes and laundry become my battlefield. Just as schoolwork and chores are for my children.
I cannot expect excellence and perseverance to come from my children if I am caught up in rationalizing the choices I have before me, with my feelings. I have chosen Him, and He dwells within me. He is stronger than my feelings.
He is the way, the truth and the life, and I have chosen to walk in His name and in His strength. Today, I will not allow a sink full of dishes to overtake my joy. If He is the way, I will follow His steps. If He is the truth, I will model this for my children. And if He is the life, I will give praise and thankfulness that the battles in my house are His to win, and not mine to lose.
And Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth and the life.” (John 16:4)