Do you ever have those moments when you tell God, ”No… not that, no more.” Those moments when you already feel the world is balanced on your shoulders and one more thing might make it tip and collapse at your feet? Yet, that one more thing sits in front of you staring you down and appears around every corner you turn because it’s yours to pick up… and you know it. But you still find yourself telling God, “No more.”
I used to be the queen of no more. I used to walk past things that I knew were meant for me to grab hold of. I would tell myself I was too busy, or not good enough, or that I was just this or that. Sometimes I would simply tell myself I misunderstood and God didn’t really want me to do it anyway. All forms of saying no more. All forms of walking away from my abundance. And one day I read this verse: “Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do what I tell you?” (Luke 6:46)
I was brought to my knees.
How often had I cried out Lord, Lord, purify me. Lord, Lord, I am yours. Lord, Lord, use me. Yet when the days would come to pick up what He lay before me, I would step over it as if it was meant for someone else’s path. I would tell him, “No more.” I would tell him the world I was carrying on my shoulders was enough for me and that I could carry no more. And in this verse I realized, the world was never mine to carry. None of it. Not one piece is mine to carry. It is mine to give to Him. So that He may carry it for me. All He asks is that I pick up what He tells me too in obedience, and to let go of the things that aren’t mine to pick up in the first place. That’s it. The rest He figures out and works for good, even in my imperfections.
And you know what?
The world I thought was so heavy back then has a million more things in it to do now, but feels lighter and freer and is filled with more joy. With each yes I give to Him, the more I find myself capable of doing. Not because I am stronger, but because He is with me, and near me, and I know that with His strength I can do all things. ALL THINGS that He asks of me. He will never crush me or overburden me. The world that I once balanced on my shoulders has been lifted by walking in obedience.
But I had to decide to give Him my mask of strength and replace it with my cross. I had to decide to put all of my inadequacies, hesitations, fears, and lies behind me. I had to decide to walk by faith and trust that the God I call Lord, Lord certainly, in fact, is Lord, Lord. And He is. My trust and my strength is in Him alone.
Where is your strength? Where is your trust? Are you overwhelmed and overburdened at the thought of picking up what God is asking of you? Give Him the weight of the world you are trying to carry and find the rest your soul desires. Walk with the faith that He is the “Lord, Lord” you cry out to, and say yes as He guides you in His ways. You are created in the image of God, by God and filled with unimaginable capability. His capacity to use you is not limited by what you think you are able to do, it is limited by what you believe He is able to do in you.
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)